第36章 无法遮掩的思念（2/2）

“你在哪里<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”夏歆言尽量控制着自己的呜咽<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

“在公司<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”

“哦<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>那你忙吧<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”

电话挂了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>然而洛承熙却再也不能平静<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>她委屈的声音<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>她压抑的抽泣<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>都牵动着他的心<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

记得以前<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>他的言言也是会这样<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>在很晚他还没有回去的时候<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>小心翼翼地给他打电话<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>不要求什么<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>只要听到他的声音就很满足了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

内心满满的思念让他猛然站起来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>拿起身后的外套<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>匆忙走了出来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

天已经快亮了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>夏歆言睡不着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>站在镜子前<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>看着自己肌肤上的一个一个吻痕<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>纤细的手指轻轻拂过<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>仿佛还可以感受到他微微粗糙手指的碰触<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

然而这时<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>房间门却突然被打开<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>夏歆言下意识地转过身<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>看着突然出现的洛承熙<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

洛承熙走过来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>紧紧将她拥在怀里<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>“我想你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”声音很轻<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>轻得仿佛只有气息<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082722/12786725/-5818426234306973746.png)'></span>然而话里的思念却是那么明显<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

眼泪再次绝提<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>为什么面对他<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>她总是这么没出息<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>“对不起<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>我不是你的言言<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”夏歆言绝望地说着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

“我知道<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>可是还是很想你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”

夏歆言一把推开他<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>“想我为什么要一声不吭的离开<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>想我为什么从来不接受我的感情<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>想我为什么不肯好好爱我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”

“对不起<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>一开始的时候<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>我以为你是她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>所以想尽一切办法讨好你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>想让你重新回到我身边<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”洛承熙低声说着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>

“那么后来呢<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>当你发现我不是她的时候<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>为什么还要关心我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>因为我跟她有一样的容貌<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>还是因为…”

“我曾经以为<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>在这个世界上<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>除了她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>我不会再为任何一个女人动心<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>但是现在…”洛承熙自嘲般地笑了笑<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>“原来我对她并不忠诚<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”

“可她已经不在了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>你应该去追求你的幸福<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082712/12786725/-2496458562036074172.png)'></span>”夏歆言拉着他的胳膊劝慰着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

洛承熙静静地摇摇头<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>“是我害死她的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>我真的很笨<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>她那么爱我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>为什么我总是怀疑她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>总是伤害她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”虽然嘴角保持着上扬的弧度<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>然而眼泪却不受控制地流了下来<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>“我害死了她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>还有什么资格去追求幸福<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”

“如果她真的爱你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082727/12786725/4056773644428195.png)'></span>她也希望你可以重新开始<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“爱<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”洛承熙摇摇头<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>将脸埋进掌心<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>“她一定很恨我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>恨不得我下地狱<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>怎么可能希望我幸福<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”

“虽然我没见过她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>但是从你的描述中<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我可以想象的到<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>她一定是一个善良的女孩儿<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>这么善良的人<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>是不会恨自己最爱的人的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>不然她也不会甘愿被你囚禁<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>也要守在你的身边<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“可是我不会原谅我自己<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”脸紧紧地埋在掌心<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>说话的声音有些模糊<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>“以前我以为还有补偿的机会<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>所以我为她改变<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我戒掉坏脾气<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>戒掉强烈的占有欲<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>戒掉自私<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我希望有天她再次回到我身边的时候<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我可以给她幸福<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>但是现在<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>一切都晚了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“可是她毕竟已经不在了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”夏歆言轻拍着他的背<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

“我忘不掉她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>又放不下你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>”洛承熙缓缓地抬起头<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>“我不断的劝告自己<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我爱的人只有我的言言<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>可是每次看到你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>虽然明知道你不是她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我还是控制不住自己想要给你关心<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>我无法眼睁睁看着别人欺负你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082732/12786725/-5679377596634654854.png)'></span>无法对其他男人向你投来的猥琐目光视而不见<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“…”

“尽管我知道<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我这么做对你很不公平<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>可是我没办法<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我曾想过要离开你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>离你远远的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>但是我…舍不得<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“那就跟我在一起吧<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”夏歆言深情地看着他<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

“…”洛承熙看着她的眼睛<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>然而很快便了转了过去<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>“你是无辜的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我已经伤害了你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>所以…”

“反正已经被你伤害了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>就算你不跟我在一起<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我也已经喜欢上你了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>如果你不接受我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>就是对我的再一次伤害<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”夏歆言有些无理地说着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

“可是跟你在一起<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我总会把你当成是她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“我不介意…”

“可是我介意<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326342.png)'></span>”洛承熙紧接她的话尾<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>“这对你太不公平了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“那你就加倍对我好<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>弥补过来不就行了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”夏歆言假装释怀地说着<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

“你这个傻瓜<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>跟我在一起<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>你只能做替身<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>你明白吗<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”洛承熙抓着她的肩膀<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

“你的心我看不到<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我不知道我在你心里的样子<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我能看到的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>只是你表现出来的样子<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>不管我在你心里是谁<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>至少你爱我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>这就够了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“够吗<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>你不在意吗<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”

“说不在意是假的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>但是我爱你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>很爱很爱你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>爱你爱到非你不可<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>我离不开你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082737/12786725/730089097011434243.png)'></span>所以比起离开你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>我宁愿让你把我当做别人<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“傻瓜<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326342.png)'></span>”洛承熙紧紧将她抱在怀里<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>“你这个傻瓜<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>笨蛋<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>我不是一个好的情人<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>我不值得你这样<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“值不值得不是你说了算的<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>”夏歆言吸吸酸涩的鼻子<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>“既然你无法接受我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>那我只好努力了<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“…”洛承熙不知道该说什么<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>只紧紧抱着她<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>用尽全身力气将她抱在怀里<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>

“洛承熙<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>从今天起<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>我要追你<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>你做好准备了吗<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082707/12786725/4929132799029326360.png)'></span>”

“言言<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>不要对我太好<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>不要<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”

“我就是要对你好<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082742/12786725/-9001345273200533750.png)'></span>好到让你同样离不开我<span class='character' style='background-image:url(/img/1349146082717/12786725/6218851141494795529.png)'></span>”